i felt the following emotions upon said realization in the following order:
- excitement -- i get to marry my favorite person on the planet in approximately three months!!! i never have to say goodnight to him + watch him drive away again. i get to see him every morning when i wake up. i get to make a home -- a real, honest-to-goodness home -- with someone (not just anyone... but MY someone).
- fear -- i will be getting married. marriage is a BIG DEAL. (no... really?)
- panic -- are the plans for the wedding sufficiently under way? am i missing something? have i got all my bases covered? i just really, really don't want anyone left holding the proverbial bag. i want everyone (me + tim included) to enjoy the day + be entirely relaxed.
- peace -- i know that i know that this is the right person, the right time, the right place. i love him completely. i am loved unabashedly in return. and the wedding? well, it's just a party. it's going to be great.
breathe, lisa. just breathe.